This is my conclusion six months into my Do-Over Challenge. One of the biggest challenges I’ve faced during that time is getting my brain to cooperate.
Like when I meditate. It takes every ounce of energy I have to focus on the breath. All I have to do is focus on the breath going into my body… and focus on the breath as it leaves my body. Easy-peasy.
But NOOOOO! I can’t focus on my breath more than a minute or two without my brain flitting off to make plans, make lists, over-analyze, rationalize, second guess, and otherwise get in the way of my progress. How can breathing be sooo difficult?!
The meditation guy says, “That’s just what brains do” and that I am to “congratulate” myself when I realize I’m away from the breath, not admonish myself, and focus back on the breath.
Easy for him to say. I just want to tell my brain, “Shut the f***k up!
The program I’m working on is from the The Mindful Way Workbook. It’s very well-researched and even comes with a CD with meditations on it. I have to admit it’s been very helpful but it’s got me wondering just how stupid brains are. Why can’t they just realize thinking is getting in the way and just, well, STOP thinking?!
In one of the meditations the guy says “thinking isn’t the enemy”. I beg to differ. I think the world would be a lot better off without all this extraneous thinking going on. How many wars have been started by “smart” people thinking it was a wise idea? How many “smart” inventions have killed millions? How many “smart” asses get their asses kicked?
I think we’d all be a little happier if we didn’t have our brains in overdrive all the time–I know I would be happier. What do you think?
I’m thinking at this moment that I’m thinking wayyy too much about thinking. I’m tired, frustrated and plain cranky because I just can’t shut off my stupid brain. I just want to do what I feel without my brain’s constant nattering!
That’s all I got!